THINGS I WISH I COULD SAY

“Love will catch up with you”

And I think you were scared 

Scared of what it could of been

Scared of love and losing a love you hadn’t even given yourself a chance to really even experience yet 

Scared of it breaking you into pieces, pieces you’d have to put back together alone

Scared of feeling out of control or being controlled

Trapped

I want to be free 

But love frees us all if we let it 

Love dries our tears if we let it 

Love heals our wounds if we let it

Love holds us close and doesn’t close the door at every mistake 

Love doesn’t run away 

rather toward you with open arms waiting for you to accept the embrace

Love is not to be feared 

For love and fear can not coexist 

It takes courage, you must be brave 

You must be brave, you must be brave 

To love, to know love, to accept love

And even with fear looming love stays

telling you it’s okay to be scared but love, love anyway

 For Tatiana

When I met you I wasn’t looking for anything but ended up finding everything.  

It feels like a piece of my heart is in another place roaming the earth, living, breathing, laughing, growing.

I know I am whole on my own, happy on my own, free on my own 

But still apart of me is missing.

you. 

Rescue Me

Know that love will always save you for you are love, you are your knight in shining armor; 

you do not need to be rescued, to be fixed, you need to be loved. 

I love you, every part of you. 

I love you for who you are now, searching and I’ll love you when you’ve realized that what you’re searching for has always been within you.

You are my heart in human form. 

Take care of it, take care of yourself so when we reunite I’ll be able to breathe again

The Body Never Forgets

I’m sitting at my desk thinking about the last time we kissed

The last time your lips touched mine, your tongue curling around mine like a quiet promise

Soft moans as our hands gripped each other closer 

I’m sitting at my desk thinking about the last time my lips traced your neck

Alternating between kisses and licks 

My tongue moving to your ear

Whispering “how much do I turn you on?”

I’m thinking about how good it felt to make you feel good.

a fish that can’t swim

Everyday without you feels like I’m underwater 

And every distraction is a single breath 

And every memory is time stopping 

And every heart beat is me calling you back to me

Come See My Couch

When you realize there is no such thing as perfect timing

When your inner world wants to feel the sun on its beautiful brown skin again

When the fears, doubts and anxieties have been silenced by the loudness of knowing and bravery in facing the unknown

When you feel safe within yourself

Come see my couch, a place where you can lay your head and rest knowing that you are finally free to be